My father's arrival in my life precipitated an unraveling. I associated it with him then but I know now that this is just the way of change. Things get crazy then things fall apart. I lost my job; I lost my kids once more; I lost my relationship; I lost my house... I soldiered on. I got darker and darker. Loss is what I felt but I was actually making room for something new in my life and this was the painful bit. I was ready to end it all at one point, though I managed to pull myself together enough to ask someone for a better idea. I was given one and I took it.
Thank you for listening
Different Ways: Landslide, Part Two, Excerpts Chapter 19, pp. 138-143
Music: This song always reminds me of when I was asked out to coffee on Leap Day by my boss and he fired me. I had the impression at that time that I knew what was what. I had it all nailed down in my mind. In ten minutes, I knew nothing and I was skyward. It is such a strange feeling to be knocked off the rails like that. Then, finding out my father had died and no one told me and the subsequent journeying to the Valley of the Sun. The plaintive aspect of this song reflects what it felt like when reality was setting me straight.
One more cup of coffee for the road
One more cup of coffee 'fore I go.
To the valley below.
One More Cup of Coffee by Bob Dylan
Thank you for joining me here. The memoir Different Ways: Revealing the Feminine can be purchased through my website using a link to Village Books at AlltheDifferentWays.com. There will soon be an eBook version available with an independent retailer. The e-book on Amazon is a bit of a mess but free if you are a Kindle member. Don't buy it. Parts are missing in the E-Book.
The BlogCast that outlines my intentions for this series of readings from my book, Different Ways, Revealing the Feminine can be found here in the post, Between the Lines.
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